Saturday, May 9, 2009 :]
My life have not been the same when i am with you,, i feel so happy every night i call you knowing that u would be bullying me make fun of me...keep calling me monkey laughing at each other. i still remember when i first saw u during sec 1 camp the way u smile and look at me..and it just feel great. Got your number justed smsing u and soon.,...we became true buddies... i often you ...maybe because u really make my day happy..knowing u would be always with me... Things started to went crazy.. u started to cry for me.. and i was deeply touch... i finally realised u were the one for me. I started to love u... loving till i could hardly breathe .. i miss u really badly..
Should we even meet at the first place... if it was not for the Sec 1 camp we won't be like this.. now..i start to hate myself... Y MUST I MAKE HER SAD..CONFUSED.. because of me she is like that.... and I ...i m so angry with myself.. y my life is so screwed up...y y y y y yy y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! must god make us like that??? HUH??? must god do this thing bad to us???? i really love her.... i really do.... but u came in my way.... y. y even let me meet her... y can't i even love her.. did i did something wrong??? did i??? aren't i working hard for my O level... i often pray that u give me strength to work hard... to do well for O's ..let nothing distract me.... but she is not a distractiont me... and the best part she is from a different religon... i often pray u to give me a girl who would love me...but must u do like this to shatter my life...my heart... must we??? IS IT BECAUSE I NVR GO TO CHURCH THAT Y I M LIKE THAT... m i??:?? i just can't stop crying...yeah i cried for goodness sake.. ..
i m so sorry.... but i will nvr be with her... i will never...
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5:42 AM
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